Flickerspace Waypoints

YES! bellowed the mind in my head, SAY IT, SAY THE EVERYTHING-FEAR, THE ALL-TERROR. I TOO FEAR EVERYTHING. I FEAR MY LONG-AGO BEGINNING AND THE AWAKENING OF DREAD, I FEAR THE UNCEASING BECOMING OF ME. I FEAR THE HUGE AND THE TINY, THE FAR AND THE NEAR OF ME, AND I FEAR THE MOMENT THAT IS NOW AND NOW AND NOW WITHOUT RESPITE.
The power of that utterance and the relief of it! With those words my fear seemed all at once a mighty fortress in which I was no longer alone. No, not a fortress – not something that stood still but a voyaging thing, a black boat rising and falling in the sea-dark, a vessel in which I could journey far.

Russell Hoban, Fremder

Mantras:

This is the psychodynamic heartland of the voyage, where the brain begins presenting what most needs to be processed: themes from earlier life, emotionally charged material, imagery connected to the Emotional Operating Networks of the deep brain. The observer perspective — seeing a figure of self in the filmstrip rather than inhabiting it — is the craft’s natural position in this region. It allows the brain to elaborate a great variety of versions of the self: young and old, strong and weak, light and shadow, angelic and bestial. Each version carries information. The Narrator names what it sees. The Embodier registers what it feels.

The craft is now cruising through the inner solar system of the psyche. There is narrative here, and drama, and a recognisable self — a figure seen from an observer’s perspective, moving through settings, engaged in sequences of action. The visions have the quality of filmstrips: condensed and concertinaed, as though long sequences of visual narrative have been compressed together, switching location, morphing figures, blending fantasy and memory. The physics of this region is the physics of the dream — not the logic of waking life but something more fluid, more associative, more symbolically charged.

Visions of the numinosum, manifesting extraordinary structural hypercomplexity and multidimensionality, tend to merge into the mystical luminosity of Bright Light Experiences, though brightness and structural complexity can at times be dissociated. With regular practice of ganzflicker meditation over the long term, figures and objects are perceived as progressively more luminous. Bright Light Experiences become increasingly frequent and prolonged with the intensity of dazzling whiteouts attaining beatific luminosity and supplanting all thought and feeling.

Gate Gate Pāragate Pārasaṃgate Bodhi Svāhā
(“Gone, gone, gone beyond, gone altogether beyond, O enlightenment, hail!”)